Way_of_the_Lady

[Rowan]

Ok guys. I need some help here. This will be a long post so let me say I'm sorry now. I had a dream the other night that really got to me emotionally and it still does and I know there's a connection or meaning here somewhere and I'm looking for help with it. Clint has suggested me meditating on it and trying to lead myself back to the dream and I will, but if anyone has any ideas on this dream I'm about to post it would be appreciated, oh and I'll post this at the group site too just for those that don't come here. So here goes:
I dreamed that Clint and I were out camping with some people we knew(which in and of itself is weird, since I've never been camping). Anyway Clint and I were laying down outside and it wasn't really dark yet, but we were listening to two of the people we were with argue and we were kind of laughing to ourselves because one of them was saying "you lied, you said it woldn't be cold and I'm freezing my ass off." We found this funny because it sounded like something we'd be saying. Anyway we were laying there just listening to the people in our group and the sounds outside. Clint was starting to drift off to sleep, but I was very antsy. I couldn't and didn't want to just sit and be still. So I got up and started to walk away very quietly because I didn't want anyone to follow me. I just wanted to be out and soak up all the nature around me. I was so overjoyed and I was filled with such happiness. As I got further away I began to run and I realized Clint had followed me, but I kept running. I had to, I wasn't running really fast or trying to get away persay, I just needed to run. It was as if I could sense an animal side of me or an animal inside me. It felt like a bear. I would stop once in a while and grab dirt in both of my hands and just laugh. While I was running I kept feeling as if it were a bear in me. I kept thinking of a bear. then I started down this embankment and I was just so ecstatically happy. I knew Clint was still somewhere behind me, but I couldn't stop, it was if the animal was in control more than me. Suddenly, I turned and ran back the way I had come, passing Clint. I got to this opening where there were beautiful trees and water around me. I could hear the water and my senses were so alive. I could smell the trees and the water. I laid down on the ground all spread eagle and grabbed to handfuls of dirt and I bent my arms at my elbows and I was just laying there holding the dirt feeling nothing but bliss and I had the biggest smile on my face. I was perfectly content, I felt happier than I could ever remember feeling. Finally Clint found me and asked me if I was ok and my response was "of course, why do you ask?" Then there was an announcement made to everyone in the park that because of the hour they wanted everyone back at their campsite. We started back to ours, but I went another route, and I ended up at some big cabin type lodge. We went in and started talking to some people and then all of a sudden this woman approached me and she was so happy to see me. She was telling me she was so glad I was back, she couldn't believe I was there. Then several people gathered around and started calling me some name that all I can remember was that it started with Hen or Her and it wasn't a coomon name, but it was a name that sounded familiar to me. Everyone seemed to know me and love me. I kept telling them they were mistaken then this one woman pulled out a picture and it was me. Here I was amongst all these Native Americans and they knew me and they were thrilled to see me and they had a picture of me. They weren't happy as in I was a long lost friend or family member, it was more than that. It was if I was someone they revered and had great respect and love for. Then I saw this young Indian girl that I approached and she acted as if she couldn't believe I was talking to her. I was filled with an urgency to tak to her. I asked her who Walking Bear was and where he was. She acted like she didn't know what I was talking about, she told me she didn't know. I told her she was lying, I told her if there was no Walking Bear then how the hell had I channeled him only 30 minutes earlier? She suddendly handed me this wooden pipe that you could tell had been hand carved and I became so emotional, she had also given me a totem. I know it was a totem and it was on a leather cord. I was then struck with an urgency to leave and find out all I could about who this Walking Bear was and why this pipe and totem felt so special to me. I kept turning the pipe over and over looking at it. I put the necklace on without ever really seeing it, but I just know now and felt in the dream that it was a bear. Right before I woke up I had begun to feel as if the name they were calling me fit. I began to really feel this person they thought I was, was actually me. I woke up emotional. When I told Clint about this dream I began to cry and he said I should write it down and I cried writing it and I'm crying now again. I have never had a dream that has effected me like this before, maybe a bad dream, but never one that has effected me so strongly and for so long. I have never felt this emotionally connected with a dream and I'm still feeling the same way I did when I woke up. Again I'm sorry it's so long, but I didn't want to leave anything out in case it might be important. If you can help great, if not thanks for trying and at least listening to me.
Blessed Be
Rowan

[johnna]

thats cool. i think clints right.. you should definitely go back and get that name. lol.

[MorningStar]

that sounds like such an amazing dream. I am glad to hear you are getting a lot of info from it*

[naddya819]

that is so cool.I have had a dream kind of similar.Ithink your spirit animal is a bear!lol
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